The beginning

So I have decided to start posting my weightloss journal online. The goal is to shame myself into losing weight. I also plan on posting pictures wither bi-weekly or monthly not sure yet. I will also be posting my my weight, measurements and clothing size. Calm down loved ones its not like people cant tell that I am already fat, the secret is out. Be prepared to see pictures of my fat ass in a bikini. Let me give you a run down of all the things I have tried in the past:
phentermine
xantrex
ripped fuel 5x
Sweat suit
high protein no carb
the zone
Atkins
Ok all of the above didn't really work, what worked the most was hitting the gym. Last fall I took a weight lifting class and lost 11 pounds and 13inches. I put most of that back on in the following spring. I know there is no such thing as instant gratification when it comes to weight loss. So I am "In It to Win IT!" that was incredibly lame.
Let me give some of my History as far as my weight goes. I am the second daughter fourth down from a large family made up of step, half and full siblings. I have always been the tallest out of my sisters and starting in 8th grade I began to be the heaviest. My weight didn't really bother too much I just figured that was the way my body was made. Hell I played soccer, softball(that was miserable) and anything church youth groups did for activity. I was always hit on and never had a hard time finding a boyfriend. But usually they were older than me and my parents never let that fly.
I never thought I was ugly or not worth being loved because I was fat. I never slept around to boost my self esteem and I always knew my worth because both my father and stepfather made sure it was clear. When I graduated high school I lost 100 lbs and not sure how it happened
I got sick the first summer after high school and lost weight. After that I just kept loosing. I got to skinny and had 18% BMI for being 6'2". Which if you don't know that is not good. Anyways I gained weight and looked healthy for 5years. Then I got pregnant.
It wasn't like I used it as an excuse to eat. Hell I didn't know I was pregnant till my second tri-mester. I was working out religiously and lost close to 10 lbs that first tri-mester. When i found out I was pregnant I took extra care of my body. I ate stuff out of the "What to eat when you are expecting" book. Each month I gained anywhere from 8-10 lbs, my gyno kept telling me how fat I was getting and never really offered much help. We ended up firing her.
Soon after the baby was born he was hospitalized then when he did come home I became extremely worried and stressed about being a mother.
It wasn't till last fall that I decided to get a handle on my weight gain. After loosing all the progress I gained in the fall of 08 I decided to get serious and loose this weight.
I also plan on blogging about everything that happens while I loose this weight. I am very close to finishing school and I stay at home to be with my son. So the plan is to post bi-weekly. I will give updates and other stuff.